October 04, 2008

and all I really want is deliverance,

every day more and more i feel.... i honestly don't even know what i'm feeling.
my feelings change so often, too quickly.
this is getting pretty exhausting.
i can't even make out what i really want.
sometimes i think i know exactly what i want, the next second i'm totally doubtful.
it's pretty hard to put my thoughts down to words.
i just wished someone understood.
i wish i was completely honest.
i just feel like i'm drowning in an empty glass - i hate this.
the worst part is letting my loved ones know, i just hate being such
a cliché, just another complicated teen/drama queen.
i don't like feeling complicated. i just want people to know even
though i'm not feeling ok, im not completely terrible.
i need to make decisions, i need to make some drastic changes.
i just need to get up and do what my heart & mind are telling me to.
i'm just having too many mood swings.
...stuck, hmm, that's what the basic feeling is.