hoping for better;

everything is shitty,
i'm still trying to be positive.
i just wish i stopped making the exact same mistakes,
i've had enough. this time, i promise things will be different.
i will stop being so damn stupid. i'm just too paranoid, it's so complicated
but from now on, ive decided to be less afraid and just allow myself being happy.
in another hand, i've got so much to look foward to, at least i've got that.
things will get better, i know so.
i can't wait for christmas vacations.
im super excited.