sigh

adore these two.

i never had a doubt

For Obama
for Peace
for Tearing Down Walls
and building bridges!
(Congratulations President-elect)

two decades;

i think of my course in life. the good times, of course the bad times, my twenty years of life.
seems like it all started so little ago. everybody says we have to cherish everyday, every single moment, because life moves pretty quickly, i know all these things, but it just hit me.
when i look back and think of the way i thought my life would have been by this time.
i have no regrets and i would not change a single thing, i just wish i could REALLY actually seize the day (not just think about seizing the day).
i want to always live in the moment, not from time to time. my wish today is that when i look back, i can smile because i have lived my life to the fullest.

smiling does turn things around:

"We are all in the gutter,
but some of us are looking at the stars."

Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan (1892)
Act III




(Christopher David Ryan)

remember to vote

"Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek." (Barack Obama)

because i felt like it

metamorphosis,

metamorphosis; natural process after birth, in which an animal abruptly changes it's form. basically that's what im going through, both physically and mentally.
it's obviously important to improve yourself, you never stop learning,
there is always something you can better up.
we all know this, we all know many things.
doesn't really mean we are actually applying it.
which is a struggle for most, like myself.
i keep making the same stupid mistakes (yes, here i go again!)
and i keep telling myself i will stop (God only knows). i've already made some changes,
still some people make it hard for me.

im trying to look at the bright side of it all, try not to focus so much on the downside.
that eventually things will be as the should (I KNOW i deserve it), eventually things wont be so messed up (not that my life is the worse)
sometimes i feel im living hell, but im not that unfair (i know things could be so much worse & i know im not the only one going through stuff) and i still try to be grateful in spite of it all.
i keep smiling even if i wanna cry badly. i've been so stressed out. everyday feels like decision making day (life changing decisions). i feel too much pressure, which might affect my attitude towards (bitchy!) others and i'm not asking for understanding (can't expect that much)- im just asking for patience (for me & others surrounding me). i might actually even start praying or something (im more the spiritual type).


in the -changing my life, moving on and letting go- spirit,
i cut my hair (im that serious about making changes, NOW)

hoping for better;

everything is shitty,
i'm still trying to be positive.
i just wish i stopped making the exact same mistakes,
i've had enough. this time, i promise things will be different.
i will stop being so damn stupid. i'm just too paranoid, it's so complicated
but from now on, ive decided to be less afraid and just allow myself being happy.
in another hand, i've got so much to look foward to, at least i've got that.
things will get better, i know so.
i can't wait for christmas vacations.
im super excited.

within you.

and all I really want is deliverance,

every day more and more i feel.... i honestly don't even know what i'm feeling.
my feelings change so often, too quickly.
this is getting pretty exhausting.
i can't even make out what i really want.
sometimes i think i know exactly what i want, the next second i'm totally doubtful.
it's pretty hard to put my thoughts down to words.
i just wished someone understood.
i wish i was completely honest.
i just feel like i'm drowning in an empty glass - i hate this.
the worst part is letting my loved ones know, i just hate being such
a cliché, just another complicated teen/drama queen.
i don't like feeling complicated. i just want people to know even
though i'm not feeling ok, im not completely terrible.
i need to make decisions, i need to make some drastic changes.
i just need to get up and do what my heart & mind are telling me to.
i'm just having too many mood swings.
...stuck, hmm, that's what the basic feeling is.

truly inspired.

he has been my inspiration since day one, i'm just so blown away. i'm so happy change has come our way. in times like these, we really needed someone like him. i think it's about damn time we set our differences apart, since we all have basically the same purpose, we want a better future. Obama has the right vision for a better tomorrow.
he really captured me in New Hampshire, with his well known speech, "Yes We Can", if you have not heard or read it i advise you do. below is a fragment i really like:

"...We know the battle ahead will be long, but always remember that no
matter what obstacles stand in our way, nothing can withstand the
power of millions of voices calling for change.


We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics who will
only grow louder and more dissonant in the weeks to come. We've been
asked to pause for a reality check. We've been warned against
offering the people of this nation false hope.



But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been
anything false about hope. For when we have faced down impossible
odds; when we've been told that we're not ready, or that we shouldn't
try, or that we can't, generations of Americans have responded with a
simple creed that sums up the spirit of a people.

Yes we can. "


www.barackobama.com

¿cómo decirte lo que eres?

Eres..
lo que más quiero en este mundo, eso eres,
mi pensamiento mas profundo, también eres,
tan sólo dime lo que hago, aqui me tienes.

Eres..
cuando despierto lo primero, eso eres,
lo que a mi vida le hace falta si no vienes,
lo único, preciosa, que mi mente habita hoy.

Qué mas puedo decirte,
tal vez puedo mentirte sin razón,
pero lo que hoy siento es que sin ti estoy muerto, pues
eres lo que más quiero en este mundo, eso eres.

Eres..
el tiempo que comparto, eso eres,
lo que la gente promete cuando se quiere,
mi salvación , mi esperanza , y mi fe.

Soy el que quererte quiere como nadie soy,
el que te llevaría el sustento día a día ,
el que por ti
daría la vida, ese soy.

Aqui estoy a tu lado y espero aqui sentado hasta el final.
No te has imaginado lo que por ti he esperado pues eres
lo que yo amo en este mundo, eso eres,
cada minuto en lo que pienso, eso eres,
lo que más cuido en este mundo, eso eres.

messygirl.

cleansing

i've got issues with being organized. it's just i'm not! i try to keep my agenda up to date and actually look at what i have to do. i'm constantly cleaning my room up (last up to 24 hours organized). i try to keep junk outta my dear Jimmy (my adorable jeep). i try to organize all the files in my laptop. i'm pretty messy, even thought i'm pretty much used to it...sometimes it gets pretty annoying. so i'm trying to get things together, well at least for some hours.

to do list:
C L E A N !(an angle on my nearly clean room)

(my sidekick, Jimmy)

(my laptop)

coldplay tribute

there was this Coldplay tribute a few weeks ago, im a die hard fan. so here are some of the pictures i took, also some fragments of some of their songs. enjoy :)

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
I'm not gonna leave it until it's much too late
On a platform, I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come homeHold my hand inside your hands,
I need someone who understands.
I need someone, someone who hears,
For you, I've waited all these years.

Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

if you wish to see more pictures:
arlincita.deviantart.com

¿quién detendrá la lluvia en mí?

i live in the most beautiful tropical island. it's amazing, great beaches and beautiful mountains. only that sometimes the weather really sucks. most of the time it's -i can't even think- hot. it can get pretty unstable. one second sunny the next it's pouring rain.
we have our hurricane season in august. so we've had some storms lately, one after the other.
it's ridiculous how much rain we've have had these last 2 weeks.
i can relate what i've been feeling with this weather.
all this rain has really made me appreciate the usual annoyingly hot weather.
i can't wait to go out and sweat a little, ironic much?

but no big deal, that's life. we always want what we don't have and forget to see how wonderful what we have truly is. the ideal thing to do is just stop waiting on tomorrow for a sunny day and just dance in the rain while it's pouring. it might just be fun.

got motivation?

so...hmm...have you ever been utterly NOT motivated or moved by absolutely anything, yeah...that's what im currently feeling.
i want to lay all day doing absolutely nothing. as if life would stop for me, for just a minute.
i'll have to put myself together and do whatever i got to do nevertheless.
sucks.
and just can't understand the reason why, i've been sorta happy lately (most of the time), i've been okay with things and accepted things and smiled a lot, laughed too much.
so why can't i get the drive to do anything at all?
is there something that im missing and i don't even know?

it's been a while

it took me a while, but i'm here.
for good.
...i've missed you, much